Who knew you could actually be inspired by a Miley Sirus song. I feel almost ashamed to admit it..but, I was while on my way to work this week. I might as well come out now and say: I am a closet Miley fan. I was singing along in the amphitheater that is my car and I was hit by a line in her song. I don't remember the line but, I remember the feeling and the struggle that I had afterward. I feel that God has placed an incredible calling on my life. I have this consuming desire for a life of crazy adventures in ministry. I am so inspired by shows like project runway (which happens to be one of my favorite shows) for the sheer fact that those people left everything, probably quit their jobs, letting bills get behind, straining relationships just to follow their dreams and their passions. They will not be satisfied unless they are living their dream. Now here is the struggle: I want to run after my passions in that way. I've been very seriously considering getting a 2nd job and spending one year paying off debt and saving money. At the end of that year I will be able to do that. Sell everything and go. Do. Sunday morning at church I was given a picture by someone else. She said she saw me as peter. A rock. A doubter (for a time) but after the doubt, one with incredible faith. A faith to run head first, full speed after my dreams. I want it. I’m scared that working like that will stretch all my relationships. But, I am praying for that Peter faith to step out. What is the point of dreaming of revolutions if I am not willing to take a cue from every great do-er and just Freaking Do!
PS. Read The Church that never sleeps. It is really good...so far :)
:-) I hope you do go out full blast. Change the world Amy style. You have the potential and the energy to do it. I am, seriously, excited to see what you do over the next few years. I'm pretty sure I'll smile a lot about your actions and the story of your life as it continues to unfold.
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