So I got back from equador several weeks ago and I find myself still processing it. I havent been overseas in years and God is still breaking it more and more. I love that God broke my heart for a people that i've honestly never thought about before.
My heart in head are in a battle now. I loved equador. I loved the people that I met. I loved anita (a woman in the villiage). and I love that more than longing to go to Equador agian, I long to see her family agian.
But, my heart has been in africa for as long as I can remember (except for that time when I was 13 and I decided GOd was calling me to be a youth pastors wife lol) I know that I will call it home agian one more time.
The door for africa seems so closed for me right now and Equador seems so open. I Can very easily picture my life in Equador and loving every second of it.
I read some of Katie Davis' blog today and since I was crying in front of lots of people I decided to hold it off for later :) It hurts to see someone living the life that i have pictutred. In the past several years God has laid addoption so heavy on my heart.
Why can't I feel the peace of His timing now?
Honestly...I just want to go where He calls me. I Just want to be in the very center of His will for my life. But not knowing whats around ....
